Almost There

This isn't right.

It has been horrible watching it, but I believe we are in the home stretch for her.

Agonal breathing.

I hate hearing it, hearing her. Watching the woman I love die is unlike anything I have ever imagined. I thought letting her go without medical help would be better, easier. I'm sure it brought her peace and happiness, but now I am left watching her suffer so horrendously that I have to wonder why this is happening.

No one deserves this.

Cancer is something no one should ever have to deal with, no matter how good or bad it might be. How someone can be given life and then have it smothered by something so bad.

When we met she was so full of life. Now she is nothing. She doesn't even speak, merely moans and cries in pain. She refused morphine. I wish she hadn't, maybe then she wouldn't be in such pain. She doesn't even look the same. I've seen death before... seen people die, but never like this.

I suspect she only has a few days. I hope she only has a few days.

I will update as I can... so as to keep people updated.